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CC CHRONICLES: Throwback Thursday / Weekends with Dad circa 1991

Published by cctadmin on July 23rd, 2015

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Once upon a time CC Trubiak spent every weekend with his dad. My parents were divorced by the time I was approaching Kindergarten and it became regular routine to have dad pick us kids up after school on Fridays. We’d usually spend both Friday and Saturday nights with him before heading on back home to mom’s house where we’d live and go to school throughout the week.

There’s nothing quite like the memories I have of those weekends; they were some of the best days of my youth and I don’t believe that’s nostalgia talking. Very fond recollections of grocery shopping after school at Eddie’s IGA and getting all the goods for the weekend ahead; dad would make a pit-stop at Candy Bar so he could pick up a pack of cigarettes and the Reminder (which back then came with the television schedule in every Friday issue) and allow me to select an Archie comic or two.  Maybe up to Rex Video where we could rent a Betamax tape too.  Up at dad’s place itself I was usually busy drawing pictures and writing stories inside or climbing rocks and making forts, skipping stones down by the water and generally killing hours upon hours at play. Dad could be found inside the garage tinkering on an art project (usually involving a buzz saw) with CFAR radio full blast, a cracked-open beer and a half-finished cigarette sitting on the ashtray. It’s easy to remember the sun shining and the feeling of dirt on my skin after a full day, and the comfort of knowing this was my weekend home.

Pictured here I stand with dad, circa 1991. I would have been around 12 years old, right about to embark on those God-awful pubescent years. Oh the emotional turmoil and insecurities that were about to transition youthful days into adulthood as I would come to know it. I remember standing there by dad’s car for this photo, the wind blowing. Dad’s gone now but I need look at the picture for only a moment to recollect many life details of those days gone by. The dreamer in me sometimes imagines what it would be like if we could time-travel; oh the options of where we could go again… I know that I would certainly want the chance to be in that moment again just to take comfort. Here’s to our youthful pasts.

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CC Featured in Winnipeg Free Press: Flin Flon has changed, escapee finds / “Everyone’s searching for something I believe they already have within…Resilience.”

Published by cctadmin on September 27th, 2013

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Below is a Winnipeg Free Press article : Click here for direct link.

Story By Jonathon Naylor

Photography by Darren Holmes

FLIN FLON — C.C. Trubiak would have a hard time convincing fans one of his most popular songs, Prairie Boy, is anything but confessional.

“Head hung down in shame, it’s plain and clear you ain’t welcome here,” the 34-year-old croons on They Say I’m Different, his 2011 debut indie-folk album.

So sums up Trubiak’s childhood in Flin Flon, a normally welcoming community that failed to live up to its billing for the awkward gay youth.

Relentlessly bullied, Trubiak reached his tipping point while on summer break between grades 7 and 8. Twelve years were enough. He was out of here.

“I did not want to die,” he recalls. “I wanted to live, but I wanted to do so without the fear of threat or violence on my life, without the crippling feeling of shame, isolation and loneliness — all which seemed impossible. In my 12-year-old mind, I deserved the shame because I was constantly aware of my defect, my sexual orientation.”

And so Trubiak tried to end his own life. After fate struck him down, he began a family-supported journey of healing and self-acceptance.

In high school, he started seeing a guidance counsellor, who would let him use her phone to call a social worker at Winnipeg’s Rainbow Resource Centre, which supports gay youth and adults.

Trubiak also escaped into a world of music. The teen who could sing before he could talk spent hours in his bedroom crooning, writing songs and listening to records.

“I saw musicians as teachers, experienced in life and able to voice who they were through lyric and song,” says the gentle, warm-voiced man with the thin beard and black-rimmed glasses.

When life grew overbearing, Trubiak would remind himself that once he was done with high school in 1997, he would leave homophobic Flin Flon in his rear view.

Which he did, moving first to Prince Albert, then to Winnipeg and finally to Ottawa. It seemed the further from home Trubiak got, the more comfortable in his own skin he became.

It was in Ottawa he finally summoned the courage to unleash his latent vocal gift, packaging it with a very personal message of hope and tenacity. Playing clubs and caf©s, he slowly fostered a fan base.

But music wasn’t all that was on his plate. Compassionate to the core, a virtue that his harrowing childhood only strengthened, Trubiak studied social work at Carleton University.

After graduating in 2010, he scoured Ottawa for a job but found no takers. He was still pondering his next move when the phone rang. It was his sister. There was an opening for a social worker in Flin Flon.

Career-wise, it made all the sense in the world. Life-wise, the thought of going back home made Trubiak sick to his stomach.

When the inner conflict settled, he sent in his resum©. When he got the job, he promised himself he would stay for just one year, get the experience and get the hell out. But arriving in the summer of 2012, Trubiak discovered the Flin Flon of old existed only in memory. People seemed open-minded, thinking nothing of the growing number of men and women who were living out of the closet.

Just as impressive was the vibrant musical community that welcomed him with open arms. Soon he was performing at Flonstock, Flin Flon’s big outdoor music fest.

In between work and gigs, Trubiak pieced together a followup to 2011′s They Say I’m Different, an album called Tiny Army: The D. Holmes Sessions, due for an iTunes release soon (follow him on Facebook or at cctrubiak.com).

Having slayed his share of demons, Trubiak is as visionary as ever. What would it be like, he wonders, to enjoy that rarest of careers as a full-time musician?

It’s not that Trubiak is eager to give up his day job counselling people. It’s just that there is more than one way to change lives.

It’s not that Trubiak is eager to give up his day job counselling people. It’s just that there is more than one way to change lives.

“Everyone’s searching for something I believe they already have within,” he says. “Resilience.”

Jonathon Naylor is editor of the Reminder newspaper in Flin Flon.

jonathon_naylor@hotmail.com

Republished from the Winnipeg Free Press print edition September 26, 2013 A15

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NEW DiRECTiONS / ARTSWELL & Envisioning the world where the arts are recognized as essential to the well being and health of everyone

Published by cctadmin on February 15th, 2012

Although I have a big interest in the creative arts, rarely do I get the opportunity to speak specifically about my interest in art as a form of therapy.  Personally, I’ve used the arts as a coping device for years; music, film, creative writing, have all been a great source of support through my youth, and even today.  A lot of the photography and music I do is connected to the use of arts as a form of self-exploration and discovery.

Over the course of time I have achieved my education in social work, getting my Social Service Diploma from Algonquin College and my BSW at Carleton University.  At the time of these educational chapters, I did not fully make the connection of the arts as a form of therapy – I believe I gradually pieced this together – in the end, determining that if I continue my professional career as a social worker – I would have to do so while connected to the arts.  This makes more sense to me now than ever; after all, I still utilize arts as a form of self-discovery and support – why not transition my career towards art and/or music therapy?

Since graduating nearly two years ago with my BSW I’ve spent a great deal of time nurturing the artistic side of me – submerging myself in writing, music, photography – at the same time developing my own sense of who I am as both an artist and social worker.  These exploratory years have been beneficial; not only have I accomplished a few things but I have also developed a clearer sense of how to move forward with this aspiration of mine to connect with people via the arts.

While a longer term goal is to eventually get a Masters in Art/Music Therapy – a shorter term goal is to gain hands-on experience in the art therapy world.  I believe I have a lot to learn but I am very excited at a new opportunity on the horizon.  ARTSWELL, a non-profit charitable organization here in Ottawa, is dedicated to improving the quality of life and well being of individuals living with the effects of age, illness or injury.  Over the past year I have volunteered with ARTSWELL as a means of staying connected to the helping profession – and what appeals to me about ARTSWELL is that they carry innovative, interactive art programs, workshops and projects for the benefit of people all ages.  The professional artists and therapists that work at ARTSWELL use various mediums that allow participants to discover the creative process in a safe and friendly environment.  I’m all about that, and how ARTSWELL’S intent is to provide a vehicle to develop communication, validate feelings and encourage social interaction.  I know that when I was a youth and struggling to connect, this is a program I would have been very curious about.

 

ARTSWELL has graciously invited me in on the wonderful action – I will be volunteering and doing some facilitating with MOTiONS & POTiONS, a series of ten expressive arts workshops for young people struggling with distorted body image, low self-esteem, social anxiety and depression.  These workshops will increase self-esteem, encourage social interaction and group participation, combat isolation (I’m all about that) and develop new skills and healthy habits.  I, along with ARTSWELL’S professional artists/therapists will explore the concept of self-worth through story-telling, art-making, photography, journaling, drama and dance.

I know that this program will positively impact the young Canadian participants involved, and I am incredibly excited to see it kick off beginning in at the end of this month.  This is an experience I’ve been waiting for, and it couldn’t have come at a better time, as more than ever I feel ready to put my education and experience into practice.  I’ve also received a big vote of confidence from ARTSWELL as I will also be running one of these ten expressive art workshops, specifically focusing on SELF-iMAGE and PHOTOGRAPHY.  This will give me a chance to speak to my own use of photography, meanwhile working with youth to facilitate their own self-discovery and exploration.  It’s really an honor when I think about it.

As these workshops begin, I will likely spend time reflecting and journaling my experiences – so for anyone interested, stay tuned and check out ARTSWELL’S website for further information on this charitable organizations programs and goals.

CC

http://www.artswell.ca/

For more on MOTiONS and POTiONS – http://www.artswell.ca/motions-potions.html