Well, today is indeed my birthday. I’m 33 years old – and beyond that I just want to take a moment to really thank everyone for their wishes and kind words. Not one to focus on my birthday, I do appreciate the out pour of love from friends, family and acquaintences alike – I’m lucky.
One more thing about aging: I’m not opposed to aging at all; life looks and feels better the older I get. So far my 30′s have been the brightest and most rewarding years – and while I have many dreams and goals to accomplish, I’m blessed to see what I’ve seen, experienced what I’ve experienced, and loved the people I have loved . And continue to love! I guess going forward I hope to even get back into University to work towards a Masters in Art and/or Music Therapy – but in the meantime grow creatively and just have fun with people.
Speaking of which – yesterday iSAAC and JENNY came over to jam and record music – mostly just hang. The three of us continue to enjoy our weekly sessions together as it would seem that we all seek connection and opportunity to flex our creativity in the company of friends. Needless to say, my home is my sanctuary, so to have my friends enter it and feel comfortable enough to sing and share and laugh – is very nice. JENNY shared a solo song for us and sounded lovely – and if you’re reading this JENNY I encourage you to continue sharing your voice because it is a beautiful instrument! Singing for or in front of people, even friends is not necessarily an easy thing to do – for everyone; so I’m especially honored to hear her sing solo because I know she is letting me in and that’s a beautiful thing. Part of these jam sessions and recordings is about connecting and extending ourselves – as much as it is about making beautiful music.
I had previously mentioned our having recorded ‘iLLUSiONS’ last week – and this week we continued to add or tweak vocals and some percussion. I’m very happy with the results thus far; and it was interesting to hear JENNY and iSAAC mention that whenever the song begins they have a familiar sense of comfort attached to it – and I take that as a compliment in that I know I turn to music for comfort myself so to know we ignited something that can potentially comfort people is….nice (is that the only word I knOW?!)
Moving on, I recently felt inspired to take one of my original tunes (PRAiRiE BOY) and turn it from a song into an instrumental piece instead. PRAiRiE BOY is a very personal song to me that I wrote back in 2010 at the invitation to write and perform a song at ViCTiMS’ VOiCES MATTER, a two-day conference for Law Enforcement Organizations, Community Groups and GLBTTQ Communities. Bullying and having a voice were major themes of this conference, and so when I was invited to write and sing a song from the viewpoint of my own experiences, I did so as a way to support what the conference was about – HAViNG A VOiCE. BECAUSE MiNE MATTERS TOO.
Writing PRAiRiE BOY was somewhat cathartic – but challenging too in that I had never quite written a song under the same circumstances. The lyrics speak for themselves and are merely a snapshot of how I felt about that aspect of my life at the time I wrote it. But for me that’s how I view my past in a lot of ways; snapshots or embellished movie scenes. PRAiRiE BOY is a snapshot of what I like to remember most about being a teen, as we all know those are monumental years, emphasis on the word ‘mental’. I remember a very young and isolated boy who loved being outside in nature. By taking away my original lyrics, PRAiRiE BOY can now perhaps become a fresh and blank canvas to paint a picture of that sort of image; the sun shining down on a PRAiRiE BOYS face so much he has to squint. This will all be slowly teased out by the help and accompaniment of iSAAC and JENNY, singing and playing guitars and heck even a mandolin! We’ll see, we’ll see.
Finally, we tinkered with an AiLEEN MARTELLA poem by the name MiNE, MiNE, MiNE – now for anyone who remembers I have been singing another MARTELLA song by the name OPEN UP MY HEART (YOU’LL SEE A TiNY ARMY) but this time I recieved permission from her to play around with my own compositions to her poetry, as I not only love her writing, I also find it an exorcise for my own playing – having lyrics to structure a song around is much easier than writing an entire song. Her words make it easier to enjoy finding a tune to sing with – so MiNE, MiNE, MiNE stood out to me as this twisted, sort of love song. Together with iSAAC and JENNY we will use it as another opportunity to play around together. So far I think it has potential!
That’s it! That’s all! CC