Last Friday, my friend and fellow Torrid Productions member AiLEEN MARTELLA got together for some much needed bonding and creative time.
Some of you might recognize MARTELLA’s name; her work as a painter, poet and singer/songwriter are admirable and she has been a great source of personal and creative support and inspiration for me over the past two years as I share more of my arts and music with the public. For anyone who happened to catch my set at THE RAiNBOW a few months back, you might recall I performed a MARTELLA original for the first time live – that song being OPEN UP MY HEART (YOU’LL SEE A TiNY ARMY). It’s a beautiful number that she wrote for and inspired by me – resulting in what I believe is a truly poetic song with every potential to blossom into an even more amazing recording. Hence why I am currently toiling away with it as we speak in the recording studio with other collaborator DARREN HOLMES.
More to come on OPEN UP MY HEART but in the meantime, MARTELLA and I hooked up in effort to put our heads together for some song-writing and general fun times. Together we jammed in my living room, in and out of conversation and song; MARTELLA is also working on new material, both song and poetry so I also had the wonderful opportunity to get a taste of it myself. Not one to be too familiar with collaborating on music, I enjoy the time spent with her, and I usually find myself inspired to create and push myself even more. These jam sessions, if you will are encouraging as well as important to the collective process. Check out the youtube video below of my RAiNBOW performance of OPEN UP MY HEART and be sure to stay tuned for more from MARTELLA.
In other news, while there no future dates set to perform THE CORRUPTiON of FLESH with DANNiEL OiCKLE and OLEXANDRA PRUCHNiCKY, we at TORRiD PRODUCTiONS are nevertheless always toiling away on something special. Right now TORRiD PRODUCTiONS is currently putting together my very first official music video. The video is set for release at the end of May, and will feature my original song LONELY BLUE WAVES (i WANT YOU) from the 2011 album THEY SAY i’M DiFFERENT. Filming the video has been a fun process, and I look forward to seeing the final outcome so stay tuned! If you want to check out my album, be sure to visit iTunes (http://bit.ly/zQFwDg) or Reverbnation, where I currently rank at #6 on the Ottawa Folk Charts (http://bit.ly/HHwuXy). These are just some of the creative things going on that I’m particularly excited about.
I’m also continuing my work as an artist/facilitator for ARTSWELL, where we are about half way through the 10 week workshop MOTiONS AND POTiONS. I’ve tried to blog about as many of the sessions as possible, sharing photos of the work going on by myself, as well as the other facilitars and participants. I value this work very much – and this Saturday ARTSWELL will continue with a workshop on PASSAGES . For more information on ARSTWELL and MOTiONS AND POTiONS, please visit www.artswell.ca.
In other random news, I was featured recently in THE KiT Magazine, (which also has an online blog – check it out here www.thekit.ca). In a feature on clothing and fashion – I was mentioned among others as having the best street fashion across Canada. Inside I’m laughing – although on the outside I feel nothing but gratitude for the mention. I’ve always loved fashion and style and although I would not say they are among my priorities in life, I have always appreciated the value of self-expression through style. I’m just lucky they caught me on a day I wasn’t running to the grocery store in my sweatpants! Thank you to JUSTYNA for stopping me and giving me a featured spot. Check out the image below.
Finally, I’d like to make a comment for anyone interested in hearing something a little more confessional. I say this as someone who continually strives to make the best of life, but admittedly contends with a lot of anxieties, most of which are socially based.
I’ve never been officially diagnosed with any disorders, although I have been in and out of counseling for years. When the chips are down I’ve never been too ashamed to ask for help yet I recognize as much as I have pushed through a lot of said anxieties, I have also seen opportunities to advance in life, pass me by as a direct result of not knowing how to ask for help in facing the fears. Feeling ALONE in life’s journey can be a paralyzing experience for anyone familiar.
That said, lately I’ve been at a cross roads in my life and without meaning too sound vague I have been re-evaluating not only where I have come from, but where I am and where it is I wish to go moving forward. At times this commitment to making these changes and advancements in life can feel unsettling, as to embark on change can bring on many anxieties – yet I’m also invigorated right now because I have never felt more serious about finding my place and making that mark.
For years I believe a part of me has been afraid to shine – but for now I’M READY TO SURRENDER to the VULNERABiLiTY – and I admit that for me to be supported and connected to loving and positive people is a key ingredient to my survival. I thank those who are committed to me in any way and for any reason -