Archive for October, 2011


Published by cctadmin on October 28th, 2011

HALLOWEEN is one of my favorite times of the year.  I have a HUGE thing for scary movies – especially classics like FRiDAY THE 13th, NiGHTMARE ON ELM STREET, HALLOWEEN, TEXAS CHAiNSAW MASSACRE, and gems like HiTCHCOCK’S PSYCHO.   Too many great scary films to mention but in the meantime – I wish you all a safe and SPOOKY weekend!!!!!!



Published by cctadmin on October 27th, 2011


Published by cctadmin on October 27th, 2011

To this day I’m  saddened by the loss of FARRAH FAWCETT – and its not difficult to recall June 25th, 2009, as it was a double hit with the loss of legendary MiCHAEL JACKSON as well. There are many of us who will remember that day with a great sense of loss.  I’ve loved FARRAH since as early as I can remember and she will always remain my FAVORiTE of ‘CHARLiE’S ANGELS’ – despite the beauty and graces of KATE JACKSON, JACLYN SMiTH, CHERYL LADD, SHELLEY HACK, and TANYA ROBERTSFARRAH’S legacy will always burn stronger than any of those woman combined, and there is good reason for it.  FARRAH was a beautiful paradox.

There really aren’t enough words for me to describe FARRAH’S legacy – but when I think of her overall impact on pop culture I see a puzzle of sorts – and I like it.   She was undoubtedly a vision of beauty far superior to any other television star of her time; hair cascading down, that mega-watt smile, that body – & that poster that sold over 12 million dollars.  She was every man’s desire and every young girls friend, thanks in part to her role as athletic private detective JiLL MUNROE on AARON SPELLiNG’S ‘CHARLiE’S ANGELS’; a serendipitous mix of action, fashion and camp.  As JiLL she represented a ‘golden girl’, someone you could picture as your best friend and confident – someone strong and capable of fighting crime and kicking ass with the best of them.  The thing that I could never get past, even as a youth soaking in the glory that was CHARLiE’S ANGELS, was that there was also something very fragile, vulnerable and strangely tragic about her as well.   Even in her prime.   I get a similar feeling when I think of MARiLYN MONROE - that rare mixture of ‘little girl lost’ meets goddess.  And like MONROE, FAWCETT represents those actresses whom you could sense had so much more to offer than they ever really got the chance.  There was a potential there that over the years became muddled; yet on the outside looking in I never doubted that she felt desitined for bigger things.  As a gay boy I even felt compelled to protect her – in a similar way I would feel compelled to protect my beautiful sisters or girlfriends from the lecherous hands of the world.  I felt this way instinctively – although I never could understand how a television actress could evoke such sentiments.  Today I understand it as a touching aspect of her character in real life – despite the countless struggles she faced as an actress, wife, mother and WOMAN – she was also a fierce fighter in a painful world.

THE BURNiNG BED (1984) was indeed the closest thing I think FARRAH ever got to proving herself as much more than a beautiful angel.  Her role as a battered wife in the fact-based television movie earned her the first of her four EMMY AWARD NOMiNATiONS and the project is noted as being the first television movie to provide a nationwide 800 number that offered help for others in the situation, in this case victims of domestic abuse.  It was the highest-rated television movie of that season.   FAWCETT quoted what network execs once had to say about THE BURNiNG BED as they initially rejected the idea: “Nobody wants to see any woman – especially FARRAH FAWCETT being beaten for two hours”, yet her determination to break free of JiLL MONROE proved to be successful.  It was a difficult film to watch and it serves as part of the puzzle that was FARRAH FAWCETT: the fragile fighter.  If you watch the youtube clip of THE BURNiNG BED below, one can’t deny that she emerged as an actress.

FARRAH never really did become the full mega movie star I’m sure she aspired to be.  Despite all of the tabloid fodder, the loopy interviews on late night television, and the seemingly desperate nudie-art spreads in PLAYBOY, I can’t help but want to embrace and protect my favorite angel even to this day, in spite of the fact that she was a capable fighter of her own battles until the day she passed.   A person can still want to protect the fiercest of fighters – and so for today I share with you these selected FARRAH images and videos in tribute to one of my all-time favorites.

I love you FARRAH. <3


Published by cctadmin on October 26th, 2011

Last February Ottawa’s La Petite Mort Gallery presented a ONE NiGHT STAND EXHiBiT w/ LUC PIGEAULT a local and exceptionally talented photographer.  Having had the privilege of working with PiGEAULT on this project, allow me to share this look back as well as selected photos PiGEAULT took of myself and another model by the name of ERiC T.

Below is some information from last years exhibit – and for more on LUC PiGEAULT please check out:

Bathed in bright lights and fantastic light forms, PiGEAULT presented the sexual desires and explorations of his subjects in a manner that blurs reality with fantasy. And rightly so as many sexual fetishes are based on recreating fantasies. Those actions that happen behind closed doors, are put front and center in his photographs, and yet almost entirely cloaked through his light painting. It is a convoluted way of revealing and celebrating that which is often spoken of in hushed tones, and yet ultimately complicating the matter even more through his light forms.- Christina Anastassopoulos, 2010

Through my camera, subjects become a canvas on which the paint used is replaced by light. Portraying people in acts of passion, lust and love.Things usually hidden behind closed doors will now be lit up in different colors and patterns. Human behaviours that are in times uncontrollable and undecided, repressed by the mentality of mainstream society. Some might relate to the acts portrayed but never admitted to. Most of these behaviours are simply a quest for sexual fulfillment and ecstasy. A natural trait of the human mind if you ask me. -LUC PiGEAULT, 2010


Published by cctadmin on October 26th, 2011

Asking me to pick one DOLLY PARTON song as my favorite is like asking MERYL STREEP to choose which child should live in SOPHiE’S CHOiCE. How can you?  DOLLY has often likened the feelings she has about her own incredibly large catalogue of music, to the feelings a mother has towards each of her own children.  In this sense, DOLLY has a lot of kids, some remarkable, and others not as notable.    I’ve also grown attached to  DOLLY’S songs like they are my loved ones.  Although I’m not actually the mother and I haven’t given birth to any, I feel such a deep connection to these songs that I could, at least be considered an Uncle.  Each has special meaning, which I believe is a true testament to her gift as a writer and storyteller.  However, for the sake of today I would have to choose LiGHT of a CLEAR BLUE MORNiNG.  Maybe it is because the lyrics sound like they could have been lifted from the scribbling of my own journals.  Figuratively speaking it evokes a feeling of clouds lifting after an emotional torrential rain – transcending complete and utter pain.  We’ve all been there.  Nonetheless I know that when you are actually in a crisis as painful as that, it truly can be challenging to think about things ever being different.  Or better again.   For one to feel they have survived darkness to see the ‘light of a clear blue morning’, is universal.  It’s also a gift.  Once I made the connection between my own life and the meaning of the song, it couldn’t help but stand out from that point.  Plus I’m also a sucker for triumphant recovery, which is ultimately what LiGHT of a CLEAR BLUE MORNiNG represents to me – triumphant recovery.  And don’t even get me started on the beauty of her voice.


Published by cctadmin on October 25th, 2011

Iconic model of the late ’60s and ’70s, granddaughter of the brilliant fashion genius  ELSA SCHiAPPARELLi, once coined “the girl of the Seventies” by YVES SAiNT LAURENT, MARiSA BERENSON has to be one of the most exquisite beauties of all time.

Sometimes a woman comes along who embodies the spirit of her time with effortless quality that that defies all words. BERENSON was one of the most captivating woman of her era. Every now and then I go back and visit her there in the land of inspiration from that time -


Published by cctadmin on October 24th, 2011

MUSiC LOG : JAMMiNG with iSAAC VALENTiNE; Oct 18th, 2011.

Published by cctadmin on October 20th, 2011

I happen to work with a really cool guy if you ask me – quite a natural talent.  I met MR. iSAAC VALENTiNE a short while ago – but I quickly took to his quiet nature, kindness and maturity.   I mean, for a young man on the verge of 18 I am impressed with not only with his character but as I’ve gotten to know him – also his musical talents which are plenty.

I will say no more, as I know time will reveal plenty about him – for now what’s important to note is that iSAAC VALENTiNE has ARRiVED and I welcome him here with open arms!  So much so that we have developed our own musical friendship – leading us to merge our talents by jamming yesterday.  In particular, and primarily because I was blown away by his songwriting – we played around with a VALENTiNE original tune called WORKHORSE.  It’s one of many lovely songs he wrote.

iSAAC VALENTiNE has and will be performing his music (folksy – with an edge) around Ottawa through out the season ahead, also while he continues to write songs and record his own music, so I will do my best to keep you abreast on where these gigs are, and when you might be able to expect a release from him -I know I’ll most certainly be there to support this guy.

In the meantime check out some snaps taken yesterday to log our initial session together.

DANNiEL OiCKLE & THE CORRUPTiON of FLESH : Club SAW Gallery, November 18th, 2011

Published by cctadmin on October 20th, 2011

Well well well folks!  Time to listen up!

Ottawa-based performance artist DANNiEL OiCKLE is preparing for the debut of  THE CORRUPTiON of FLESH – premiering at Club SAW Gallery, November 18th, 2011.   CORRUPTiON is the live show based on OiCKLE’S self-produced electro-poetic album POiSON APPLES and OTHER DELiCACiES, released last summer.  PAOD is an album packed with religious, sexual and psychological themes set against danceable beats; and since its release, OiCKLE has been enjoying watching the public’s response to the fruits of his labor.

Joining OiCKLE at Club SAW Gallery for this event will be myself and chanteuse extraordinaire  OLEXANDRA PRUCHNiCKY – providing back-up support and hopefully much much more.   Our trio of sorts has worked together before, but  THE CORRUPTiON of FLESH is unlike anything I have worked on and because of this I encourage all of you to come see the show – what you can expect is the unexpected, and I can attest to the sweet, talented and creative man that DANNiEL OiCKLE is.  He has a distinct point of view – one I certainly think is worth listening to.

Check out the promotional add for THE CORRUPTiON of FLESH (click on it for closer inspection) , photography by BONNiE FiNDLEY.  Below are some shots from regular rehearsal.

CC TRUBiAK: Nominated for BEST NEW MUSiCAL ARTiST & BEST ALBUM 2011 in XPress’s Annual Best of Ottawa Contest

Published by cctadmin on October 19th, 2011

I was never popular in school.

Now apparently I am!  Popular enough to be included amongst some very fine talent in XPress’s Annual Best of Ottawa 2011 Contest.

Nominated in 2 categories; Best New Musical Act and Best Album 2011 (They Say I’m Different).

I’d like to give a shout out to XPress for the acknowledgment – that’s pretty cool if you ask me.  I’d also like to thank DANNiEL OiCKLE, CLAUDE MARQUiS and OLEXANDRA PRUCHNiCKY for the creative input and support that pretty much made my album THEY SAY i’M DiFFERENT happen at all.

What’s most exciting for me is that I could never have anticipated the riches that have come along with the opportunity to sing and connect with people through music as I have experienced this past year.  It has given me a great deal of insight as to knowing just where I want to go in life and how I enjoy connecting with people.  And on the horizon are some fantastic things coming up ahead – such as my involvement with the production of DANNiEL OiCKLE’S THE CORRUPTiON of FLESH, playing at SAW Gallery this November (more to come on that soon), as well as more recording and musical collaborations with some fantastic local talents here in Ottawa.  I’m currently back to recording, slowly and very patiently – and as things continue to grow and develop with these songs and collaborations I can assure you that I will keep anyone interested posted and in the loop.  SO …stay tuned.

Should you be interested in giving me a vote or two – check out the link below which will take you directly to Ottawa XPress’ web page.   Deadline for voting is Wednesday, November 2, 2011.  Go vote!